But I want everyone to know a little about this anyway.
My life has turned upside down.
I've had certain issues in my life for years now...and it turned out I couldn't handle them anymore.
On tuesday I had a sudden mental breakdown and soon found myself in a hospital where I spent a couple of days.
Now I find myself deeply depressed, something that I've known for almost two years already but what I've been hiding from everyone. Always keeping a smile on my face, no one could suspect anything and sometimes even I believed everything was okay. But that for sure wasn't true.
I'm having a break from my studies, I hope I will be able to continue someday.
But please, PLEASE, I ask you not to let this information make you pity me.
Do NOT start treating me differently now that you know this. Because I don't want people to start thinking I'm something overly vulnerable and will break like a fragile glass or something. No.
And DO NOT DARE to think drawing "Behind the Disguise" is one of the reasons behind my depression.
Because drawing, and especially drawing that doujinshi, is one of the rare things that give me something to look forward to, something that makes me truly eager and gives me a reason to get up every morning.
If drawing was taken away from me, I'd seriously question my reason to exist.
But even though I have more time now, I will keep posting two pages a week and not more. I don't want one of the rare pleasant things turn into unpleasant by forcing myself and doing it too much.
Love you all, I don't know what would've happened to me if you weren't always there, cheering me up with your sweet and caring comments, making me smile.